Archive for January, 2009

Meditation

Friday, January 30th, 2009

I have discovered that all human evil comes from this,

man’s being unable to sit still in a room.

-Blaise Pascal

Meditating is something I started to do in 2004, the way I came to it was quite formal. I had been wondering, I normally say looking for something new when I was a senior in high school and I found Buddhism, and learned as much as I could for it, I became a traditional Buddhist, only because the other forms seem to turn a philosophy into a religion, and I had enough of religion being born in Brazil you get a lot of Catholic preaching, and living in Kentucky you get a lot of Christean preaching. I actually at one point started to resent those believes and had been an atheist for some time. But then I found Buddhism and to be honest it showed me not to resent those religions anymore. I have nothing but respect for them cause they actually help people and that is the only thing that really matters, and I no longer and am atheist I just know that I don’t know and don’t need an answer to the question of creation cause I first need to perfect myself. But back to meditation, Buddhism was the path I took to learning about the practice and is one thing along with many other things I am thankful to Buddhism for. To practice meditation one does not have to be a Buddhist, in fact almost all religions practice a form of meditation, and many without a religion practice as well. It was just the way I came to it.

To understand the immeasurable, the mind must be
extraordinarily quiet, s t i l l ; but if I think I am going
to achieve stillness at some future date, I have destroyed
the possibility of stillness. It is now or never.

—Jiddu Krishnamurti

I am sure we as people have tried to define what meditation is, but after doing for some time I know realize it can be whatever you want it to be. Meditation to me is the act of trying to gain awareness, and one practices meditation because nobody can bring awareness to your life but you. The way that meditation is often described is the act of sitting and clearing you mind and try not to think about anything. This is the way I started to meditate, and i still do this form of meditation, but I have come to realize that in the state you can reach one can solve problems and even run out possibilities under the meditative state. It can relieve stress and show you that the things that you have control over. In live one often tries to control to much and we need to realize what we have sway over or not.

You would not believe
how much stuff arises
as one just sits and breathes,
sits and breathes,
sits and breathes
for seven hours.

Lesson One:
Doing nothing,
Is quite something.

-LittleBear

Why practice meditation? Well my answer is that all this is an illusion. The best way I can try to explain is that any outside stimuli is fake and it we can sit and control our true mind to block the outside and see the world withing us, it I believe can bring me to true enlightenment. But others do it like I said as a stress reliever, and a way to connect with your inner self. (which is similar to why I do it but I have a Buddhist bias, what we cant forget we all have different slants as to why we do something and I will be honest as to mine.)


No one  but yourself ,
can free your mind

-Bob Marley

Ways to practice. There are many people that will tell you all sort of ways to practice meditation. I will tell you  two ways, and it can be up to you to choose. First I will start with the environment due to that it should be the same for both ways. It helps if there is not light or sound and that you have time, when I say time I mean give yourself enough time so that there is nothing approaching that you need to do that takes up space in your mind. For example I wake up at 7:00 in the morning and usually give myself till I finish. As for the ways, one can use the laying meditation just lay flat no blankets over you or anything hands at your side and eyes closed, do not fall asleep. The other way is the way I choose to practice and that is, sitting with my legs folded one over another and back straight. The best way to start for me is counting your breath, breath in count one breath out count one, then in two, out two, in three, out three, and so on. You can go up to ten taking deep slow breathes. Repeat if needed. A big problem I have heard people having is time they are able to concentrate on not concentrating, just like anything meditation is something that one has to want to do. You have to want to control your mind and just like anything else the hardest part is starting. Just start don’t worry about how long you can hold. (Time is not a really construct so it does not truly matter.) I myself can only hold for about 50 minutes, and there are some days where for some reason I can only go ten minutes. That you want to start is enough and trough the act of practicing and practicing you will be able to hold it longer, trust me on this I went through it.  One more thing I would like to mention is that there is a practice know as walking meditation this takes place out in the wilderness as you walk with an empty mind and just wonder with no destination, this is a fun way to spend a afternoon.

Thank you very much for you time… This has been BrotherShine coming to you from the limitless void in the back of your mind. Peace.

Off Topic Today

Thursday, January 29th, 2009

Today I am gonna talk about exercise. Why? Well because to loose the weight I did, I had to change the way I lived, it was not so much about the exercise cause I never minded doing, but it really was the way I ate, well the basics of it was I did not have much control over that that aspect of life, but once I realized that I could control my eating habits, the domino’s fell into place. But I mention that cause yesterday I started a new exercise routine, I have lost all the weight I wanted and am told I need to gain some. I want to gain muscle, so late one night AJ and I where watching TV when that P90X infomercial came on, it looked interesting and AJ said that he looked it up and it had worked, that peaked my interest, I thought hey I could give it a try. So I found it (haha). After getting everything ready, such as the nutrition guide and yesterday I did the pretest. Today I started the core of the system and doing it got my chest and back burning, so sitting here I am very excited to do this. It is a 90 days program. Hopefully it works for me but we will see. Note: I would show pictures of myself but I have a fear of being photographed so I do apoligize.

Here is the site for it.

http://www.beachbody.com/product/fitness_programs/p90x.do

Also one thing that I am excited about and to be perfectly honest I have butterflies and am quite nervous about, the city I live in Louisville Kentucky has this event called the Triple Crown of running and I have wanted to do it for a while and finally this year I singed up to did. I have actually never run a race and that is what makes me a bit nervous, but I figure I should try everything at least once, but in this case three times haha. If you like running and are gonna be in Louisville around the time on the site I suggest you try it as well, it is for charity. So it is for a good cause. The first run is 3 miles, the second is 6.2 miles, and the last is 10 miles.

http://louisvilletriplecrown.com/

Thank you very much for you time… This has been BrotherShine coming to you from the limitless void in the back of your mind. Peace.

Stuck Inside

Wednesday, January 28th, 2009

Yesterday I thought it was bad but after a night of freezing and rain a layer of ice has covered the outside world around me, the thing is that it is not over yet because it is now snowing heavily. Today it looks like that I may be staying in again which I normally don’t have a problem with, being a bit of hermit at times, the problem I have is having the option to go do something being taken away. I was feeling this last night and when I awoke and did my meditation I pondered on this issue, which I broke it down it to taking advantage of something and only valuing it when its gone, in this specific case it is going out. Unfortunately I was not able to come up with a resolution to this feeling and just vowed to be more conscious on taking things for granted such as going out, I have always valued things that I can call mine, but I found this feeling different because it is not about objects but about being restrained in. You know the advantage of being inside all day is that i usually get a lot done, and I did so yesterday and plan on it today as well. The one thing that stinks is that I am not able to play bass all day either cause on Monday when helping a friend move I pinched my finger badly and have a huge blood blister on my middle finger the size of a small grape. So as i type this I have to be honest I am pecking with right hand. Enough about me I got some things I wanna share with everyone and maybe spread some knowledge, it is some things that I read recently and found it interesting enough to share.

I have said this before I am gonna keep mentioning this due to that I believe in purpose of this podcast and want other to at least give it a try. So here it is again the link to Psychedelic Salon.

http://www.matrixmasters.net/blogs/

This has technique has been around for a while, so if you have seen it good, but I think it is worth knowing how to do. It is Tilt – Shift effect on photoshop, so I recommend you try it.

http://www.tiltshiftphotography.net/photoshop-tutorial.php

Next selection is an article that made so happy, I was just smiling, all I will say is that, its Teleportation. I had and interesting conversation with Aj on this where we discussed what we each thought the next step would be if they would try to increase the distance travelled or the size transported, I say distance cause look at the way the Internet started first it was small amounts of data over long distance, to where we are not and finally video, and even cooler streaming live high res video

http://www.livescience.com/strangenews/090123-teleportation-atoms.html

I wanna help keep your brain sharp, haha

http://www.sharpbrains.com/blog/2008/01/12/brain-exercises-for-the-weekend/

Can you find you breath?

http://www.innerfrontier.org/Practices/ConsciousBreathing.htm

This next article or essay which way you choose to define such things is written by Alan Watts, I hope that everyone knows of him, but I don’t wanna speak as to who he is cause I have never met him, but I will say this my respect for him is utmost, I think that he has shared and through his words taught me so much about the path I choose to take in my life. This essay is about Nothingness.

http://www.wayneholland.org/nothingness.htm

This is something I kinda believed for years but I thought it was interesting to read it in a magazine where they applied a bit of science to the idea.

http://www.newscientist.com/article/mg20126911.300-our-world-may-be-a-giant-hologram.html?full=true

What makes you, you?

http://discovermagazine.com/2009/feb/16-what-makes-you-uniquely-you

I am gonna end with some painting, just as a light not, I hope you enjoy them.

http://www.thefunnyweb.com/2008/07/28/painting-by-wojtek-siudmak/

One last thing check out my Flickr account to see the snow.

http://www.flickr.com/photos/brothershine/

Thank you very much for you time… This has been BrotherShine coming to you from the limitless void in the back of your mind. Peace.

Some Man Stuff.

Tuesday, January 27th, 2009

Today I got up , I had to take IO to the vet, and get a BORD shot so that he can participate in his obedience classes, which is later to today, but here is the catch the snow had fallen and fallen heavily so I got a call saying that his class for tonight had been canceled. So I went to the vet got his shot and came home, now starts the man stuff, I am not saying only men do this but I just feel manly shoveling the driveway. I am kinda of chicken when it comes to the cold I don’t know the cold feelings towards me but in my case it is surely something I don’t enjoy having it around. We have a long driveway and a small shovel so it took about an hour and half and afterwords I was sweating pretty good. But anyways that has been my morning, and today with the snow out I plan on just chilling at home, I mean why not work on somethings that I have putting off, that is the only thing about being trapped inside you do things you need to do.

Thank you very much for you time… This has been BrotherShine coming to you from the limitless void in the back of your mind. Peace.

Snow is Falling

Wednesday, January 7th, 2009

Here in the Louisville deep in the Ohio Valley we get our snow after New Years mostly and today we got a good snowing. It has been snowing most of the day and enough to get the slightest ground cover but not to much. It is always to see a little be of snow I have to say even taking to account how much of a Grinch I am for the winter. But hey if it is gonna cold might as well let it snow.

As we around here prepare to bunker down to battle the hardest last bit of winter I hope that everyone out there is enjoying themselves in 2009 and always remember not to take anything to seriously.

My hope is to every one’s good health, good piece of mind, good friends, and good love.

Now just sit back get comfortable and watch the snow fall.

Thank you very much for you time… This has been BrotherShine coming to you from the limitless void in the back of your mind. Peace.

New Cycle For Those Running On Time

Thursday, January 1st, 2009

Let me start by wishing all those who use Gregorian Calender a happy new year. It is currently the first day in 2009, and I sit here writing with one eye twitching and my body feeling like it has been kicked by several weightlifters, but you know if your gonna end something end it big, and I ended 2008 with a substance list as long as my arm, it was as all other years just a year for me, I cant say good or bad cause I cant judge a year as whole I am not sure how I feel about breaking time down in small snip-its and judging based upon that small span of time, the reason being everything you get into is set up long before that year, and we get trapped into thinking that all this trouble is or was confined to this year a horrible short sided view to look at life. One has to build Karma over their whole life not just in one year.

Begin at the beginning and go on till you come to the end; then stop.  ~Lewis Carrol, Alice in Wonderland

But knowing how people feel about new starts even if it is a false construct start I mean a curtain set up by humans for humans it is a way for us to keep track it has nothing to do with the Earth. I have seen a lot of others writing what they wish to accomplish with the new year, I thought to myself I should do the same not as a new year resolution thing but as reaffirming the goals I already had and sharing them with who ever happens to stumble upon this site.

First and foremost the most important to me is finding a way to see those friends and loved ones who are far away and I don’t have a chance to often. I am going to think and work hard on a way to make this come to be.

Start to write my philosophy book. I had a theory that I don’t want to share, I am sorry but I don’t want to loose the train of thought I had on it, but I have been putting off writing it for some time not because of any real reason other then the fear to start. So I am writing here that I am going to start it.

Get my podcast out. I have been working on it and have a site set up (Not sharing it yet sorry, it is just a shell and has not information on it), I just now need to moving and doing the recording. Since I am taking all online classes this semester I should have time to work on it.( and it is my last semester so that’s good) But once I start rolling I would like to release one a week. You know this is a bit off topic but I want to mention it cause it is a bit of self analysis I always have trouble starting things the most, I think it is because I fear failing, well shit I gotta get over it, but the thing is I don’t start things I don’t finish. So the hardest part is just to start.

I would like to gain some weight, some muscle weight hopefully but as of this morning I weigh 165 pounds and this is no good according to my doctors. I am a 6′2″ man and after working so hard to loose all the weight I lost which I weighted 360 pounds, I never thought I would have the problem of gaining weight it is something strange to me. Well any ways I like working out an I know I can do this is just a matter of work, I need to go to a healthy weight of 180 pounds.

Get licensed as a Massage Therapist. During 2008 I really got into giving massages and I enjoy giving them and think I got good at it, this may sound funny it reminds me of playing bass just a different type of manipulation on a different median but you still have to hit the note right and true. But I think it would be a good thing to know how to really do it amazingly well. I would never wanna turn professional and try to make money out of it, the reason I say I want a license or at least to that level of proficiency is because then I would have had real training, I know a women who works in the field and she has taught me a lot and given me books she used when she got her license. To me it is about giving pleasure and  healing.

Save $5000 to move to Brazil this goal I have been working on and I am not limiting it to only $5000. Why limit myself :) ? But with the conversation rate being so favorable it will be quite more when I get any amount exchanged, the reason I want to save is that I would like to not have to worry about getting a job down there for about a year, or as long as I can ride it out. I have never been bad with money and I think i can control my false wants well so who knows how long I can ride it out.

These are a few small things that I want to do, meet some people that like jazz and start a jazz band just for fun, learn magic, get good at origami, grow my own meal without anything bought from a store using my hydroponics garden ( I should also post a tutorial on how to make your own hydro garden it is quite easy and if you live in an apartment you can make one too it does not take to much space.). Those are just smaller goals that I work on when I can as hobbies, all but the music and hydroponics garden the hydroponics garden is more of a thing for the future, and music is my life.

Well that is just some of the things that are going to be on mind throughout the year. Well that and all the other bullshit that sometimes get thrown at us out of nowhere. ( I say bullshit not differentiating from good or bad, I do this as a Buddhist ha-ha. I try to live in that moment and work on my self,  if we only wish for good and avoid bad when bad comes it will be very bad and it would not be smart to hope for bad, so the idea is to hope for neither and handle whatever comes with thought and reflection, I like the idea.) But I think it is good to reaffirm your goals, where I take the fork is when most people choose on new years, so I choose to share cause it would be weird to to write this in the middle of March. I hope that everyone has their own goals to work on to make their year move better.

Before enlightenment – chop wood, carry water.  After enlightenment – chop wood, carry water.  ~Zen Buddhist Proverb

Thank you very much for you time… This has been BrotherShine coming to you from the limitless void in the back of your mind. Peace.